I am not sure which rubbed off on me the wrong way, the fact that I had never envisaged this or having to choose between two roles I enjoyed and loved. The reason was quite logical, “for your career growth plan, you need to let go of one”. No, you cannot hold unto the two roles. That hurt, it was a tough call, I fought the idea of letting go of one. I did pick one, but suspicion was my initial response to things from two particularly colleagues (Somewhere in my head, i just felt this did not come from a good place) It took me a while to accept my choice, I only made peace with it in July 2018.
Clouded vision
Coloured perception
Flawed decision
A bump along the road
High are the walls
My heart won’t fall
Position stiff tall
A smile with clenched fists
This is a change
The storm does rage
Many are but a range
A soul now shut tight
A search deep inward
To go as I ought forward
As my goal lies onward
A burden I must lay aside.
© 9th July, 2018
itsewumi 